[Alia wonders, vaguely -- but she doesn't ask, doesn't pry further. It is his to share, if he wishes. The fact of his communication alone is strange, though not unwelcome. It's boring down here.
So she leaves it be, not wanting to drive him away.]
This is so. At home, I would not allow it a second thought. Yet I cannot act as I would, to protect those I care for, because this place does not allow me the same power. I have watered the sands with blood since I was a child. I am not afraid to shed it.
But I would have claimed it. I would have stood unflinching in my acts. And I would have done it for a reason, to avenge a slight or an injustice against my family. So if this house judges me guilty, it is for something I do not remember doing.
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So she leaves it be, not wanting to drive him away.]
This is so. At home, I would not allow it a second thought.
Yet I cannot act as I would, to protect those I care for, because this place does not allow me the same power.
I have watered the sands with blood since I was a child.
I am not afraid to shed it.
But I would have claimed it. I would have stood unflinching in my acts.
And I would have done it for a reason, to avenge a slight or an injustice against my family.
So if this house judges me guilty, it is for something I do not remember doing.