I blew it with Alina. And you. She doesn't want anything to do with us.
( perhaps the first time since arriving that he doesn't allow alia to see the inside of his brain — purely from a shame standpoint. he'd do everything differently if he had the chance now. well, maybe. he could never deny loving alia, same as he couldn't deny loving alina. true things are always true, no matter how you paint it.
he could've done it differently, though. been better, like he's supposed to be. not allowed himself to feel the common emotions of common men. )
It's my fault. It's not because of you. I failed you.
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And you. She doesn't want anything to do with us.
( perhaps the first time since arriving that he doesn't allow alia to see the inside of his brain — purely from a shame standpoint. he'd do everything differently if he had the chance now. well, maybe. he could never deny loving alia, same as he couldn't deny loving alina. true things are always true, no matter how you paint it.
he could've done it differently, though. been better, like he's supposed to be. not allowed himself to feel the common emotions of common men. )
It's my fault. It's not because of you.
I failed you.